Dead

I want to kill myself. I do. And I have to scream and cry on my bedroom floor so I don't do it. I hate my brother. I hate my mom. I hate my dad. I'm incapable of loving any of them. I hate my family and j hate myself. 

Senior Year

Depressed and suicidal, waiting for my only comfort to leave 

Numb

I don't feel anything.

I don't love theatre anymore. I've quit it completely without really much regret even though I say differently. 

I love Jack, but sometimes I don't care about the things I'm saying to him

I don't feel happy for anyone for anything good that happens to them 

I have no friends because of all of the things I've figured out about them

I'm going to a college I said that I never would and I'm completely indifferent 

What the fuck have I become?