My Greatest Mistake.

"I can't write. I can't do anything really. You're right. In the past, I could always come up with something. I was always so good at that." 

 I don't belong here. But I also don't belong where I thought I would.  I've spent years trying to learn as much as I can about theatre. I found out that I am very much in love with musical chorus work, so Sally let's me have free dance lessons. I'm the only one she let's do that.. She told me it's because she has faith in me. She thinks I could be one of the few to get out of this place and be something better than even I could imagine. But, I have many doubts now. Jo, Sally, and Nancy tried so hard. They gave me voice, acting,and dance. And the worst part is... I don't see an improvement.

See, my problem is, what if I'm wasting my time? No, doing theatre that I love is not wasting my time. But, that's all I've focused on. I just do my homework really quickly so I can get to rehearsal and I don't retain any of it. So, basically, I don't know anything. I'm worried that the "theatre" that I am in love with is just the small community theaters in To-puke-a. I never thought I was that great anyway, but I always thought I had smart solutions. I love theatre. I love it so much. But I don't think i can do it.

"But the mundane sets in; We play by the rules and plow through the days."